Her Story:

Tears seeping through the cracks of my fragile fingers

Hands cradle my broken heart, cupped around my beautiful face

Body abandoned, lonely as I continued to shed  rapid waterfalls from my eyes

And in the midst of my pain, a kind hand reached out to me

Asking for nothing in return only that I accept it

He cupped my face in one hand, with the other he wiped away my tears, and slightly kissed the top of my forehead 

This was the beginning of a new journey

His Story:

I remember that first night I saw her

She looked like a broken angel sitting amongst the pavement

Tears were falling down her beautiful face

So, I offered her my hand, and for a moment I thought she wouldn’t accept it, but she did

I didn’t know what came over me

Cuz just the night before when I was talking with my boys

It was Money over bitches and bros before hoes

It was all about getting that quick nut 

Leave her then come back later only to repeat it again

but never nothing serious

It was swoon her, then bang her

Let her get my camera and take pictures with no film, to make her think that we were making memories

And yet that day when I saw her, I changed

It was something in me that made me want to take her

Love her because she glowed with beauty from the inside out

As if she was placed there, to change my life

So when she took my hand, I told her I would love her unconditionally

I promised she’d always be my broken angel

It’s amazing I looked up one day and the year was over. So much drama, anger, hurt, and pain acquired throughout that year, and I made it. When this time around last year I felt as if my world was crumbling down. And tonight, I’m in a good place, spiritually, and mentally. Though it’s a process, I continue to notice the depths in which I am growing. I’ve accepted the fact that I can’t stop things from happening, I can try my best to prevent them. But in the end, all I can control is me.

On that note, let’s recap. Well for starters I brought my new years in exactly like I wanted it. My boyfriend and I chilled for some time at the house. Ate some delicious pizza. Played with our dogs and then when went to a light show. It was cool. I had never been to a light show before. They were playing some retro type of pop music,  it was really nice. I enjoyed seeing the fire works with him, even if I didn’t say it. I had a really great time. And I brought my new years in with exactly who I wanted it to be.

Oh and the pooches, Lady and Frankie. I’ve mentioned them before in another text post. But anyway. Those two are somethng else. They are so unique. Frankie she’s coming into her own personality now. It seems she’s starting to develop who Frankie the pooch is. She has so much character to her it’s so hilarious. I can literally stare at her for hours and find someway to continually laugh. She still hasn’t learned to jump on the bed consistently but, she’s persistent and she still tries all day everyday. Everytime we bring home food Frankie tries to attack it. We’ve actually discovered that the pooches like eggs. isn’t that something. Maybe if one of you out there has a dog feed it some egg and see if they like it. Like I was thinking when we eat egg it’s protein, so shouldn’t it be protein for them too. Well anyway Frankie also likes to cuddle with us. It’s so adorable. Even when you want to be mad, she just finds some way to make you want to hug her. We also cut her hair off. It was all matted so chop chop we went. But it looks so much better and you can see her whole face now. All her expressions, you can see Frankie. 

Lady she just continues to be lady. She’s getting older now so she’s slowing down a bit. She’s a very chilled dog, She loves the outside though. I used to let her out in the alley and she would just pick a sspot where the sun was blaring and just sit there. She’s our sunny dog. She loves the outdoors.

Well that’s about enough for now.

PEACE.LOVE.UNIQUENESS.

- Poetm3 (Lay)

This fire inside of me burns uncontrollably

Its flame a constant flicker only waiting to die out

See only hands with love can soothe this wild fire burning inside

And as it spreads it scorches the vital organs

I’m only hoping to survive

The pain relinquishes in the depths of my sorrow

My tears drown the hollow echoes of my cries

Wandering eyes can’t even see the hands that reach out to them

No longer reaching for a helping hand but a renewed faith

Some type of hope that may tingle my brain cells and force me to get up

Wake up from this hell, I got myself trapped in

See this room I done caged myself in has become my worst enemy

Thoughts are flowing from my mind hysterically

I can feel my soul inside burning maliciously

I can feel the hate I’ve acquired throughout the years burning off of my body

I can feel the anger within my soul searing through my pores

The infinite lies as they trickle down my finger tips

The negative thoughts that smeared the reality in my mind

Memories of me slip through my dreams

See this fire inside of me burned uncontrollably

No loving hands came to soothe me

Wandering eyes continued to ignore the hands reaching out to them

This room I caged myself in became my salvation

My soul now scorched can replenish its pureness

My heart now healed, can recall to love

Myself now empty can begin to live

My mind now free can continue to dream

This fire burned is last flicker then died

My own loving hands had to soothe me

I learned to love me, and it saved me

Kiss me, like you’ve never kissed me before,

Love me as if it were the last breathe in you.

Hold me close like you’ll never let me go

These were the words I whispered to him while he slept under the moon light in our bed,

The same bed we made love in over and over again,

The same bed our first child was conceived in

And sadly to say the same child we would neer get to know, because I had to make a mothers decision and say goodbye to my unborn child,

And somehow I thought this would drage us apart,

But as I lay in the bed next to the man who’d gotten me pregnant

I lay thankful, happy that he was in my life, and anxious to give birth to our second child, but only this time with wisdom and courage for us to both pull this off

I love to whisper in his ear that I love him

So hopefully he’ll know it each and everyday he wakes, that the girl that lay beside him in his bed, is the ONE.

The one he can rely on, and I know he thinks I can hurt him, but hurting him would only hurt myself

And now since I’ve realized a sense of true love and happiness, I’m afraid to let it go

This kind of love is perplexed yet blissful and erotic in every way. 

His hands caress my skin so sultry like, they were made for my body

His grasp upon my neck is loose, yet powerful and strong

His body that of deep chocolate, smooth and milky,

He’s my stallion, he fits with me, as we lay together in bed night after night

My mind can’t help but wonder how lucky I am, to have someone who truly loves me back

And though doubts may cloud my head, I know for sure that he’s rockin with me, as I am with him. 

I’m beginning to experience my hearts desire, and he certainly is in the middle of it.

He is my hearts desire, and everything that comes with him, I’ll accept

Happily, and willingly…

- Lay

Peace of mind, and peace of spirit. I’m at rest physically. But not emotionally. I’ve decided to give my body rest, let her catch up with me. See it;s crazy when you can feel that your body needs time, time to heal and recooperate. I feel like I’ve over worked her, and I didn’t even know I was mistreating her. But she’s tired and she needs to rest, so body of mine go ahead and do your own thing…loL. This is a random thought, but I was thinking relationships are like puzzles, when you find the right piece it fits perfectly completeling the puzzle and making it whole. True? Well I’m experiencing that perfect feel, that feeling of completion. Where he compliments me and I can only hope I compliment him. That no matter how much he doesn’t need me to do anything, I still feel like doing everything. Just so he could be at peace. And I know it sounds silly but I can’t help wanting to be around him at all times, because no matter how mad, he somehow finds a way for me to smile. It’s a beautiful feeling to have, and I’m just happy to say I have it…(Random thought) I miss my dog lady, she’s the most funniest dog I know and I hope that sentence made sense but oh well if it didn’t . But me and her papa miss her, and I can’t wait to hug her, cause I know she misses us too…pretty corny huh? But anyway, like practically every other dog owner in the world. I think that Lady is the only kind of dog like this. She’s so humanly it’s crazy, she makes us mad, sad, awwed, and just plain ugh! sometimes. But that’s our cute little ragamuffin and we love her. I know this probably sounds all over the place, see I haven’t went to sleep yet, so I’m kind of just saying what I’m thinking about right now…Lol…Baloogah! Yhatzee!! Lol, Good night to all, and I hope you have an experience like mine or better than mine, but let it be your own experience. Clear your mind first, and then your spirit, search within and find the answer. You are in CONTROL! So CONTROL YOU!!

-Lay

It’s crazy how life has always seemed so distant to me, and now I feel like I’m actually living it. I feel as though I’m in a better place spiritually as well as mentally. Throughout my life, I’ve come to realize that there’s always going to be obstacles that we will come across, but the true test is getting over them. I’ve learned to live mentally. And thoiugh it’s a quest each and everyday, I do it. I somehow find the strength and the will, to let go of outside opinions and start listening to myself. No one knows where I want to go better than me, so how can you critique me on how to get there. I have to believe in myself first before I depend on anyone else to believe in me as much as I want them to. It all starts with the mind. Becoming clear on what you want to accomplish in life, feel yourself accomplishing them, and believe it. And you can achieve it. I’ve reached the point, where I’m not letting anyone ruin what my heart desires. And I will get everything my heart desires. I’m not letting anyone stand in my way anymore. I’m taking control of my life and my happiness. And I’m achieving everything I set my mind too. I’m glad to have come into new found clarity.

- Lay

You kiss me lightly beneath the stars

Part my lips within the meadow

And hold me tightly as the wind caresses my skin

Close my eyes for a sense of reality

Inhale you in, for a feel of unity

Embrace me with your cruel intentions

Then go back to that good guy just so you can save me

Lose me within your grasp so you can find me

Cocoon me in your love, so you can rebirth and expand my mental capacity on that little thing called life

In which happy ending fairytales lie deep within its cavity

A sense of reality, where in my world its only experienced with closed eyes

A feeling of limbo, I’m floating within the stars

Open my eyes, a sense of the real world

And as if my worlds had never changed

As if the distance between time wasn’t a factor

And every heart didn’t beat the ticks of a clock

You kisse me beneath stars

Part my lips within the meadow

And hold me tightly as the wind caresses my skin